December 13, 2007

9:46 PM

Made a couple of phone calls yesterday and the resulting conversations took the fight out of me for a moment. I learned that one of my legal issues is likely lost due to not being properly preserved. Because it was not appealed at the correct time future courts will refuse to hear it! There are other issues that may get my conviction overturned, but in this war every bullet is very important because you never know which one will produce a victory. My freedom/life is on the line and there is a real chance that I’ll never be free, which is death in my eyes because this situation I’m in is only existing – not living.

My attorney was apologizing for this and it didn’t help matters. It’s not totally her fault because I should’ve seen to it that the appeal continued, but my mind was so caught up in the possibility of being without lawyers and others bullshit. She had a very full plate and was even concerned with future employment. The courts have no sympathy for such things and the defendants bear the burden, so I’m upset with the courts and myself.

I also learned that my Christmas package won’t arrive until after the holidays, maybe January 10th. The company we must order the boxes from has two phases; order by November 30th and delivery will be by December 20th, order by December 31st and delivery will be by January 10th, someone ordered a portion of my package with my agreement and that caused the company to refuse the order I wanted, by the time they agreed to allow that person to order the rest it was too late. So my snacks, the only food box we are allowed each year, won’t arrive in time to assist with my Holiday Blues. Things could always be worse! This is obviously my year of lateness, even my Christmas cards will be delayed arriving at their destinations thanks to a slow artist and a lack of stamps. Better late than never – right. Next year will be my year of improvement!!

Happy New Year!

PEACE