The most important change in my life is that I've been approved for the "leather shop" since November. The leather shop is part of the prison"s hobby craft program and is a room where we can make leather crafts. This opportunity to be able to help support myself is something I've wanted since leaving the row, death row's hobby craft program was ended in the mid 90's.
This has been one helluva learning experience for me, along with learning how to work leather I am learning more about myself and other people. A wise man warned me that nowhere else in the prison will you find a group of people like those in the leather shop. The wise man was 100% correct and hopefully I'll survive without too much damage as I chose independence.
The men there are all hustlers (not meant in the negative sense) and everyone chases the same marbles through various ways. I believe that a man can hustle (chase money) with morals and principles as well as without them, being cutthroat will produce quicker gains but has the disadvantage of making one short-sighted. How can a man with limited experience dealing with people, not to mention unscrupulous prisoners, manage to maintain his values while making gains? Honestly, I do not know.
The only thing that I know for sure is that I must learn all I can as quick as I can and get my equipment, tools and supplies. That puts me in a much better position when dealing with everyone cause I will be independent. Otherwise the hostlers want to hold you hostage by making it difficult for you to pursue your goals and will find ways to use you. Currently, I'm in exactly that situation because I've been dancing with a very crafty man.
This man had me snowed into thinking he was not crafty at all, the words, crafts and actions were all design to reel me in. Nobody pulled my coattails until recently and without the wise man's assistance I'd still be blind, thinking he was a stubborn and misguided man instead of whom he really is.
This man is one of the best craftmen in the leather shop and what he taught me in these months I'm grateful for. I stood side by side with a master as his apprentice and learned at a rapid pace, too bad our personalities and business objectives may not allow this relationship to last much longer. By no means am I ready for the relationship to end, only because I cannot fly yet.
To fly is the goal and to soar within the clouds. Such lofty goals and it will require patience, especially when I do not have what I need. A sewing machine will cost $500-$700, an air compresson $150-$200, airbrush $65, tools $300 and supplies another $600. Can I get my hands on at least $1.615? Hell no! But I will make it through this embryonic stage and become a man in the leather shop. A man with the same morals and principles that I arrived with.
I'll write an update much sooner than you think. I'm closing now only to ponder my next moves.